Dancing is the poetry of the foot

I hate to start this entry with a "It's been a long time since I've blogged." but that's a sad truth. Work work and more work. Really getting too many shitballz thrown right in my face nowadays. So for a brief moment, I felt stresser than I was ever before, so much so I wanted to jump down that building, throw my notes into the dustbin, dump my laptop in the dustbin ... But I didn't do any of those; pretty much still alive and kicking, with a 'renewed' strength to continue on with my work. What I did instead, was to cry consecutively over 4 days and over one reason - WORK (I must have been really stressed cos this NEVER happened in history. HAHA.) and had a grand finale on the 5th day by crying like a madwoman and thankfully, by the 5th day, I finally had Craig's TLC. -.- Was also horribly down with this 'puking disease' at the very same time. Puked like 5 times within a week which I later got treated at the very lousy UHC in NUS and had the doctor give me some antacids. Lames. He even asked me, 'So... what do you think is the problem with you?' Hell, if I knew I wouldn't need to pay you a visit. Hahaha. Thankfully, I survived all these and am SO going to survive the next 4 weeks.

It's only 3 weeks left to exams, with 4 more submissions/projects/presentations to go until the last submission which is 2 days before my first exam. GREAT. Most urgent paper is a minimum 40-page transport economics project which I have LOADS of trouble finding information for and I've barely started on it. Sadly, I have to do a presentation on this project next Wednesday and my project partner is MIA-ing 99.99% of the time. I really cannot handle this on my own so I am fervently praying that there is some breakthrough to my research or maybe God can make my partner come back from MIA-land. Then I have a 20-page social work research paper due next Sunday. Again, not started. And the list goes on...

Don't ask me why I have so many last minute deadlines to be met. It's not my fault because previously, I have been working my ass off reports too; 10 pages ones. And it just comes one after the other that you have no choice, but to clear the most urgent ones first. So I've been clearing and clearing and clearing... Until one fine day, the bomb went off. Haha. School's really no joke this time around.

Okay, I can't believe that even while I'm typing this post, I subconciously typed, 'Ctrl + S'. Hahaha. Too much reports. In any case, I've been complaining and complaining and complaining. Sorry to those who have been reading, but I doubt many do but yeaps, I will be back probably during the holidays to blog more and, I will survive till then. Hopefully, school doesn't make me a very much different person by then.

Went for my first jewellery shopping in ages since mom wanted to keep a lookout for my 21st birthday gift (besides the Olympus PEN). I must say it was a totally weird experience since I haven't been into a jewellery shop for a very very very long time. The shop attendants will urge you to try on the pendants and will assist you in putting on the necklace and such which makes the whole experience very weird. Like, after all their effort, you would feel bad not buying the pendant and at the same time you'll try not to bust a hole in your pocket; in my case, my mom's pocket. Personally, I'm REALLY not a jewellery person. Probably just not very necklacy. I like bracelets, of the bunch and I like pearls. My mom, on the other hand, wanted to get me a pendant, with diamonds. HAHA. Totally not in my flavour. There were a few in particular that caught my eye - A 1000 bucks pendant that looks like a magical garden..., another one with moving diamonds inside a sealed glass pendant (but it was rose gold which totally looks bad on me, or rather, I made it look bad. Hahaha.)..., a butterfly pendant.. and a heart-shaped one. All of which I didnt buy precisely because I thought I would wear it enough to make the few hundreds worth the while. And so we moved on. Hahaha. Nuff said about the necklaces and blahs.

After shopping for awhile, I got dragged by my mom to my uncle's house and my grandmom's place. It's one of the few times we visited them randomly and at such an hour but I truly enjoyed the trip. Thought it suddenly brought me closer to my non-immediate family members and I actually conversed with my grandmom for a whole 10-15 minutes in Hainanese! Hahaha. Super proud of myself! The usual weekend visits didn't allow much interaction between my grandmom and I since there's too many people running around and my grandmom's busy making lunch. I must say I truly enjoyed talking to my grandma. Think this must be what I lacked most in the recent years (since my other grandmom died when I was in Primary 2) - Grandparental love.

Reached home and found myself a present from my brother! Check this out.



Super cute right! Love my brother to bits!

And just a simple gesture from my dad told me how much he loves me. Despite being tired from work and all, he gave me the toilet first before himself for the shower. Really appreciate it!

These little things made me understand how much I actually love my family members despite the heck care attitude I always show and made me realise, how fortunate I am too. To think I was actually suffering from the all-grown-up-neglected-and-lonely syndrome awhile ago. I think sometimes I just need to look beyond the surface and pay attention to the beautiful things.

I'M A HAPPY GIRL TODAY.

I wasn't given an SEP offer in this round of application despite having a much higher CAP. It really saddens me that I didn't get such a great opportunity but I guess I will now have to channel my energy into finding more internships that will benefit me in job-finding one/two years down the road. Might consider applying for SEP in Year 4 and I know this sounds a bit crazy because for a start, I don't even know how my FYP is like, and whether I'll be able to do a fourth year or not. I hate not having some direct honours programe but I doubt I'll prefer NTU's 3-year direct honours anyway because I think I would rather spend a longer time studying that enter the working world. Hahaha. How about a 4-year direct honours programme? Tsk. If only Arts does it like Engin. :( It pains me more to see all the SEP/travelling photos on Facebook but it's alright, I'll just have to work towards having that kind of life in future. So god bless me on my (academic) merits, haha. 

It's my dad's birthday today and the family went out for good dinner at Bugis and shopping thereafter. The malls were really crowded given that it's a public holiday today. To top it off, it's the first day of GSS. No wonder everyone's rushing down to get something. But still, we have a month to go right? Tsk. There was this fat lady who was pushing her way through me and I was trying my best to stand still and siam as best as I could so she could pass. But I still toppled over by her force. Didn't want to get angry with her because she was an old (fat) lady. Hahaha. But damn, I hate going out on a crowded day. Made a few buys from shops I didn't expect myself to get anything suitable. Bought a tank top from Pepper Plus and an awesome soft blazer from Iora. Haven't stepped into Pepper Plus in the longest time. The last time I bought somthing there was when I was still in Secondary school and trying to break out of my knee-length pants dress sense. Note, breaking out of the knee-length pants era was before trying to put on sleeveless clothes. Hahaha! So it was really very long ago. Pepper Plus's apparels never attracted me since. Iora's even more unikely a shop I would step into. Never stepped into any of that shop because I thought the shop sells really oldish looking clothes.Didn't expect to find such a nice blazer inside.So I guess it's really fishing out the gems in the inconspicuous shop. To top it off, I bought unique coloured pens and even though I'm not a fan of coloured pens, it made me really happy. I just love buying coloured pens and having them around me whenever I need to use them.

Well, it was a pretty happy day in general. Happy with the awesome blazer in particular. Today, however, has taught me that some people can be really selfish and I hope that someday, they will understand that the world does not only revolve around them. It's all about perspectives, isn't it?

This space has been busy collecting dust while I was busy with my life. Hahaha! School's out so I'm back to blog but I may not have much to blog since it'll be mundane again once work starts. I hope there's still people reading this blog because no one actually comments! RAH. But in any case, I'll still blog, for myself to read at least. Hee.

Been hanging out quite a bit and just today I had a quite a bit of loot from shopping at Orchard with Janice & Michelle. Don't exactly feel deserving of this holiday because I didn't really study this semester. I didn't even feel stressed up until the day before exam when I finally start to cramp 1/2 a sem's work into my head. Don't have a very good feeling about results and it's kind of making me feel jaded about fighting for a fourth year. Still, I will try my best for a fourth year. Too much expectations to be met.

Will blog again soon, hopefully with more exciting stuffs. Will be working the same temp job as before and it's making me regret for not applying for an internship. Time to start thinking about post graduation stuffs. Should stop trying to kid myself that I still have time just because I still have school. For all I know, school might just end after next year.